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Fuck this I quit...I'm done tryin' I fucking give the fuck up....

Poison in my veins.

I'm tryin' to understand what I've done, and what I need to do in my life to be happy. it is harder than it seems like, I figured that i'd move away and build up my life somewhere else but, that just led to more disappointment to me. I figured it was for the best to get away from all the problems I've had recently but in the end it just made me more depressed than I was, I was half way across the country away from everything I've ever known so I just fell apart emotionally. I hoped that those feelings would dissipate with time, but time ran out.

In March I was called back to the place I had called home for so long, The family I had called mine was falling apart with the sudden death of my friends grandmother, the one who took me in as if I was they're own. I was on a bus back home that day and i'm still here almost 3 months later. I figured this would be the push to get my car running and get my life back on track, but I was looking in the short term not the long term like I needed....and I blew through all the money I had, so I ended back on square one. Now I am living on a couch, have a car that I can't drive, and no job...but I am working on all of them....I have the part's for my car on order, a good job on the horizon, and well.... I'm still on that couch....